Diary 1996

December 96

12 December 96

A bit of a hiatus there... Hayley has been alternately angelic and demonic for the last month or two; most of the time she is really great, but then occasionally, for no apparent reason, she will throw horrendous tantrums, and become completely and utterly obstinate about something. For example, yesterday Kathy and I were trying to get her ready for bed. We told her she had to get undressed and into her pajamas, but she decided she wanted to keep her clothes on. We argued with her for a while, but she refused to listen. Finally we had to hold her while we took her clothes off and put her pajamas on, with her screaming, red in the face, the whole time, repeating that she wanted to keep her clothes on. She ripped her pajamas off and continued to scream and shout, tried to get clothes from her drawers, and generally tantrummed around. Only after Kathy really got angry with her did she finally calm down. When I went to pick her up from school yesterday, she refused to come with me, and lay on the ground kicking. That one I just waited out; after a while she came outside but refused to come the car. I waited some more, and after she had calmed down a bit I pointed out some interesting things happening in the construction site across the way; after looking at that for a bit she had forgotten her tantrum and came with me. It gets pretty tiring after a while, but she is such a sweet-heart when she is good that it is easy to forget how bad she can be :-) When I pick her up from daycare, or come to the house in the evening, she always cries "Daddy!" and comes running to me with arms wide to give me a hug. She loves reading stories to herself or to us, and often spends quite long times playing on her own or with Nicholas from downstairs (he is about a year younger than she is). I have some stuffed animals of various ages, and I put them out on her bed the other day, and suggested she might sleep with them if she wanted. She looked at a Wild Thing (from Sendak's book) with some horror:
Uh, no nanks.  I weawwy don't want to sleep with that Wild Thing.  I
would wake up in the night and go "aaaaaah!"
She then sorted them into the acceptable ones (snoopy, a bunny, and a bear) and the unacceptable ones (the wild thing and "const void", a most bizarre-looking thing some students once gave me). I was curious to see if she knew Snoopy's name, so I asked her who he was. She thought for a second and then replied "Charlie Brown", which I thought was quite interesting. When I pointed out that his name was Snoopy, she readily agreed; I would guess she had just forgotten his name.

October 96

29 October 1996

Hayley's story enactments are often more formal now; when Moi came over for dinner, he and I were playing with Hayley; she would point to Moi and say "you be Albret [Albert]", to me: "you be Albret's Mom, and I'll be Mrs Dee." These are characters from a book she recently got. She then explains the current situation: "Albret is sad because his Mommy went away," and then we ad lib. Periodically, when we aren't making the scene go as she wants, she re-organizes the cast to put herself in the role that needs fixing: pointing to Moi, "now you turned out to be Albret, and I'm Albret's Mom."

27 October 1996

We went with Hayley to a fancy-dress party at the zoo, for the birthday of Cameron, a friend of her's from daycare. The kids' costumes were really great; Hayley went as a dinosaur that looked more like a dragon to me (but heaven forbid I should say so :-) A birthday party at the zoo was a great idea; we'll have to remember that for future parties. It also meant that people could wander off and look at the zoo whenever they wanted to. For those of you in Rhode Island, Roger Williams park and zoo is really excellent for a city this size; the zoo is fairly small but very nice --- lots of open spaces for the animals, with small unobtrusive windy paths to walk along. They often have good exhibits there too; a few years ago they had some great robotic dinosaurs that they put in the woods by the side of the path; they would roar and move their heads and bodies. Hayley would go absolutely wild over that now.

25 October 1996

Vocabulary (these days I rarely catch words until long after she starts using them):
Halloween -- Halloween
sometimes -- sometimes
merry-go-round -- merry-go-round
Today I was in a store with Hayley. She found a stuffed dinosaur that she wanted, and I told her I didn't want to get it for her; I didn't think it was worth it. I suggested that we get one at a nature store or whatever. She told me that Kathy had told her she could have it (which turned out to be true, but I wasn't sure whether to believe it at the time). So I told her that the next time she came to this store with Kathy, she could get it. She was upset, but more sad than angry; she told me she was sad because she wasn't going to be with the dinosaur tonight. She then went over to the dinosaur and said:
H: [sad voice] I'm sorry I can't take you home today, but when I come
   back with Mommy I can det [get] you.
H: [as dinosaur] That's ok.  I want to stay here tonight.
H: [to me, more happily] De dinosaur said he wanted to stay here tonight!
D: Ah, maybe he has friends here he wants to be with.
H: Yeah.
[I finished getting what I needed and paid for it, then as we were leaving:]
H: Wait!  I got to tell [ask] de dinosaur [if] it's otay I don't get him
   today! 
D: No, hon, you can get him next time.  [heads for the door]
H: [wails] No, no.
D: [sigh] ok.  Go tell him then.
H: I need you to tell me which... which...
D: aisle?  Ok.  [we trog  back to the aisle with the dinosaurs]
H: Dinosaur, is it otay I don't get you today? 
H: [listens to dinosaur, then nods, satisfied] He says it's otay.

On the way back from daycare today, Hayley told me that Barney was her best friend. Her best "cwoff [cloth]" friend, that is. I asked her who her best friend at daycare was.

H: Gweer [Greer]...  and Jesse.
D: Jesse?  I don't think I know Jesse.
H: He's vewwy quiet.  You have to know him.
D: Ah, you have to get to know him to appreciate him?
H: Yeah.  To appwe...  appweciate him.

23 October 1996

Hayley is very much into reading stories to us or to her toys, now. I think this was partly triggered by some cassette-books we got her; she will sit for hours listening to the tape and following along in the book. She very quickly learns where the page turns are, and follows fine even on the side of the tape that doesn't have a chime to tell you when to turn the pages.

Here is her rendition of the first page of "The Three Little Pigs":

You're too big to yive here any more, so go and build your houses, she
said.  Go and build your houses, said de mother.  But make sure de woof
doesn't catch you!

It is interesting that she knows that "she said" and "said the mother" are interchangeable, and is some indication that she is remembering the meaning rather than the words. Another thing I noticed is that she sometimes changes things that are presumably meaningless to her into meaningful things; for example, "by the hair of my chinny chin chin" becomes "by my hairy chin"

After I had read her the three little pigs a few times, she looked at me:

H: What is our house made of?  [Oops --- we live in a wooden house :-)]
D: Umm, well, some of the house is made with bricks.
H: It's made of bwicks, right?
D: Umm, yes, yes.

15 October 96

Kathy and I went on a field trip with Hayley's school, to a farm for a hayride and pumpkin "picking". It was a lot of fun; the farmer was very tolerant of kids climbing all over piles of pumpkins and hay and stuff, and along the hay ride he stopped periodically to show us things. He showed us how green peppers turn red and then yellow, and why the more mature peppers are so much more expensive --- when they let them continue to grow, a large proportion are damaged by frost or birds. The only unfortunate thing was that it was really cold, and some of the children weren't dressed warmly enough. But we all huddled up and there was amazingly little whining and complaining --- less from fifteen 3-year-olds than we usually get from our one!

9 October 96

Hayley's manners still leave rather a lot to be desired; the other day Kathy was talking on the phone or something while Hayley was trying to watch a video. Hayley came out into the kitchen, fists on her hips, and declared: "Mom, you're being *awfuwwwy* yowd!" (loud).

When I picked Hayley up from daycare today they were watching the Lion King. Hayley came out of the area where she was, and brushing me aside with a firm "wait", explained to one of the teachers: "I'm afwaid I can't watch the end of the Yion King, cuz my father is here."

I committed a most grievous sin the other day --- I forgot Barney at daycare. When it was bedtime, we searched high and low, but couldn't find him. Hayley was devastated.

H: Barney will be all awone!
M&D: No, no, there are lots of other toys there.
H: But he won't have my bwankie!
M&D: Well, he can use the other blanket that you leave at daycare.
H: How will he know where to find it?
M&D: Oh, he'll find it easily.
This went on for some time, but eventually we persuaded her that it would be ok, and she went to sleep; the next day she got her Barney back again.

8 October 96

Here is a transcription of a conversation I had with Hayley a few days ago, not because it is particularly interesting, but just to get an idea of her language skills at this point.

We were looking for the crayons that can be used on a plastic drawing sheet.

D: Which crayons is it... These?
H: No.
D: So, where are these crayons?
D: Or we could just draw on paper if you like.
H: How do you draw on paper?
D: Paper...  Paper is what you normally draw on.
H: I want draw on dat [plastic sheet].
D: Sure, but we have to find the crayons that go with it.
H: Can you pwease?
D: Well, I don't even know what they look like, hon.
H: Dey're like, dey're like nitz. [shows me a pink crayon]
D: They're pink?
H: yeah.
[...]
H: Oh, so... look!  
H: Yet's yook at nitz. [not sure what she was looking at]
H: I'm helping you.
D: Yes, you are, very much.
H: Dad, where could dey be? [loses interest]
H: Dad, can I pway wid nitz thing for now? [Picks up the bumble ball]
D: Sure, but we may need to change the batteries.
H: Oh.  De batteries died.  Let's go down and change the batteries now.
D: That sounds like a good idea.

6 October 96

Today Hayley went to a birthday party for Margarete at an old merry-go-round in East Providence. The merry-go-round was built in the 1890s; it is the first one I have seen that has the rings to grab. I had read about this many times, but never seen one or a picture of one, and I had imagined it quite wrongly. For those of you as uncultured as me :-) the rings are about 3cm in diameter, with a thickness of maybe 4mm. They are dispensed by a machine that is continuously filled up by an attendant while the ride is going; a metal mouth like the ones that dispense tickets holds a ring partially extended, and you have to pinch your fingers at just the right moment to get it. If the ring is brass, you get a free ride; otherwise, you toss the ring into a clown's head a quarter turn on. As someone there pointed out, if the mechanism jams, it is quite easy to lose a finger, and in this age of litigation, it is surprising that the owners still risk it... The merry-go-round was very fast compared to the ones at Roger Williams Park and the mall; it was quite difficult to move Hayley from one mount to another in the middle (as we invariably end up having to do).

Hayley's best friend at the moment is a little girl called Greer; when they meet, they immediately start to tickle each other. Greer is, I think, about a year older than Hayley --- asking Hayley about ages is not at all productive :-)

vocabulary:

roof -- roof
drawer -- dwawer
door -- door
hairy -- hairy
fire -- fire
hammered -- hammered
chimney -- chimney
plop -- plop
happily -- happiyyi
ever -- ever
point out -- point out
think -- sink
boring -- boring
good heavens! -- good heavens!
chilly -- chilly
morning -- morning
gorgeous -- gorgeous
job -- job
good -- dood
festival -- festival
party -- party 
birthday -- birfday
lady -- yady
gentlemen -- gennelmen
toddler -- toddayer
soaked -- shoaked
white -- white
chair (2) -- chair
ripped -- ret
legs -- yegs
jacket -- jacka
festival - festival

September 96

25 September 96

Hayley came up with a great construction today. She was telling me she didn't like one of the little girls at daycare, Margarete.
D: Why don't you like her?
H: Because she meaned her eyes at me.

I later heard the other half of this story: Hayley had been barking at Margarete like a dog, which is why Margarete meaned her eyes at Hayley. I have seen Hayley do this to people, and it is really obnoxious. She gets on all fours, and barks at a person, refusing to speak (except sometimes to say in a falsetto: "I'm a dog!").

22 September 96

Yesterday we got Hayley a dinosaur collectible (velociraptor) with movable legs and arms. This morning she came running in, with the velociraptor in a stretched-out-position:
H: It yooks yike a gallimimus!
D: Hmm, is that right?  I remember the name but not the dinosaur.
   Do you have a book with a gallimimus in it?
H: [Thinks] I do not know.  I'll ask Mommy.  [Runs for the kitchen]
   I'll tell [ask] her which dinosaur [book] it is in!
   Mommy, do you know which dinosaur gallimimus is in?
M: No, I'm afraid I don't.
H: [Holding her hands out to the side, palms up] In fact, we don't have
   any books with gallimimus in it.

21 September 96

This evening Hayley asked for macaroni and cheese, and I cooked her a kind that she hadn't had before, with alfredo sauce. She took one look at it and exclaimed

H: It's DIRDY!"
D: Those are just spices, hon.
H: It will be too fffficy!
D: No, no, they aren't strong at all --- you won't even taste them.
H: No.  I don't want dat.
D: [sigh] Ok, what *do* you want?
H: [louder] I don't want dat!
D: [slightly irritated] I know, just tell me what you want, and I'll
   cook it for you.
H: [looking obstinate]  I don't want dat!
   [shoves plate at me and storms off into the living room]
I told her that when she calmed down and could tell me what she wanted, she should come back into the kitchen and we could talk. After a little while, she did, and we started to look for something she wanted. I refused to cook a second macaroni and cheese with a different sauce, and she started to get angry.
D: Hayley, look.  I'm happy to make you whatever you want, but you have
   to tell me what.
H: [on the verge of tears] But you yook yike [look like] you're mad at me!
D: [heart breaking] Oh hon, no, I'm not mad at you.  [goes over and hugs
    her]
H: But your eyes yooked yike you were mad at me.
D: I'm sorry if I looked mad.  I was just a little irritated because
   you didn't even try the pasta.    
After this she asked for a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, and everything was fine. The people at her daycare center said she was good at talking about her feelings; I don't know what to do to encourage this, but we seem to be doing roughly the right thing.

We went to get Hayley's picture taken today. The woman there posed Hayley with her hands crossed in her lap and her legs slightly crossed. This afternoon Hayley was playing with my (empty) camera, "taking pictures" of me. She knows how to press the shutter and wind the "film" on. Each time she carefully instructed me to assume the same pose she had in her picture :-)

This afternoon Hayley decided to replant some flowers she had given Kathy. There was half a planter free, so I let her dig some holes there to put the flowers in:

D: Be careful of the other plants' roots', Hayley.
H: I *am* be-carefulling!
Kirsten at her school mentioned that she had trouble with the faucets there, and I noticed that although she has little trouble with the bathroom sink faucets (a sort of metal arm that pivots), she can't deal with the bathtub faucets (circular) at all. It seems to be a combination of lack of strength and lack of knowledge of basic physics.

16 September 96

Hayley was sitting in the living room, having just watched one of the Land Before Time videos, in which "sharp teeth" are the carnivores. When I came in, she jumped up,
H: I want to see the sharp tooth pot!
D: [very confused] What pot?
H: No, no, you rewind to see parts of videos and movies
D: Oh, the sharp-tooth *part*

A common (grammatical and physical) mistake for her:

I just drawed on myself by a mistake.
Today in the living room she had been coloring and spread her crayons all around. Usually she just wanders off when something else catches her interest, but this time she picked up all her crayons, and then announced triumphantly to me,
Daddy, I picked up all my trayons by myself wivout aksing!
meaning without being asked, of course.

15 September 96

Her counting of objects is really close to correct now. One of her problems is a tendency to skip 5. She was looking at her new dinosaur book, at a section that had five or six dinosaurs on each 2-page spread. The most common mistake she made, it seemed to me, was a subconscious attempt to end up with the same number as last time.

There was an occasion today where, in a book she was reading, the previous page had five dinosaurs, and the current page only had four. She counted off the dinosaurs, "one,...two,...", then a rapid "fwee four", pointing to the third dinosaur, and "FIVE", pointing to the last. She has done this a number of times, so I can see the pattern fairly well.

Vocabulary. I am so behind on this...

coin -- toin
skate -- tsate
mattress -- mattwess
landing -- yanding
slip -- syip
sink -- sink
whip -- whip (the dinosaur whips its tail at the other dinosaur)
hide -- hide
closer -- cwoser
unpleasant -- unpweasant
nice -- nice

7 September 96

H: I'm dunna dwaw you a picture.
[she then started picking at a lump of blutack,
 used to hold up posters, not to draw with]
D: That's nice.  What are you going to draw it with?
H: A dinosaur.
D: No, not what of, but what with?
H: A trayon.
I think she had a firm expectation about what my next question was going to be; the only reason she was wrong was that I wondered what she was going to do with the blutack.

Hayley wanted to move one of her little chairs, a sort of upright beach-chair, to another room.

H: Yook, Daddy, I'm tswong enough to twawwy [carry] chairs...
[she catches sight of one of the big heavy kitchen chairs]
H: umm, yidda [little] chairs around.  I'm not big enough to
   twawwy big chairs around.
Later she was drawing on a piece of paper; I asked her what she was doing, and she proudly told me
I'm writing my yetters [letters] for tsool [school].

A few days ago she made up an insult: "whipper". When she is playing with her dinosaurs, she often makes the big nice herbivores clobber the nasty carnivores by "whipping" them with their tails, as in, whipping their tails around. Today she was angry at Kathy for some reason and she called her a "whipper".

She still doesn't seem to make much of a connection between the meat that she eats and the meat that animals eat. I guess it is so disguised a lot of the time that it is hard to tell.

3 September 96

jude was playing with Hayley this evening when Hayley bumped her head.
j: Do you want me to kiss it better?
H: I need a bandaid more dan a tiss.
apologize -- apowogize
bandaid -- bandaid

August 96

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27 August 96

Yesterday Hayley had a fit in the drug store; we had stopped on the way home from her daycare to get drinks. She was annoyed because I wouldn't buy her a toy, and when I offered her a drink, she said, quite loudly:
H: I don't like these fuckin' drinks.
D: [stunned for a second] HAYLEY!  You don't use words like that in a store!
H: I don't fuckin' care.
D: All right, then, we're leaving. [scoops her up and heads out]
H: [crying all the way out] I'm thirsty!  I want a drink!

I have been having some interesting discussions with Hayley about eating meat. I am a recent convert to vegetarianism; Kathy and Hayley are omnivorous. Hayley and jude and I were playing with her dinosaurs. jude made one of the dinosaurs eat another, and Hayley said:

H: Don't eat dat dinosaur, dat isn't nice.
j: It's not nice to eat dinosaurs?
H: No.
j: Then what is he going to eat?
H: He can eat fish.
j: Why can't he eat dinosaurs?
H: Cos dey get up and walk.
j: So you don't eat animals that get up and walk?
H: No.
D: But cows get up and walk, and you eat cows.
H: [as if that were absurd] No we don't!
D: Sure you do.  Hamburgers are made from cows.
H: No!  Daddy, stop talking to me so much.

Another interesting discussion concerned whether people were animals. I asked her in the car on the way home one day whether cats were animals:

D: Are cats animals?
H: Yes.
D: Dogs?
H: Yes.
D: People?
H: No! [of course not]
D: Yes they are.
H: [vehemently] No!  People aren't animals!
D: Whatever.
Later that evening jude asked her whether people were animals, and she replied:
Ummm, dey are sort of like animals.
I found it interesting how a single data point could change her opinion so much.

Hayley started her new daycare on Monday, at the child care center on the Butler grounds. Before going Kathy had explained to her that she might be sad, and maybe even cry a bit on the first day. Hayley told us later that she might cry "a yidda bit". Kathy and I both took her to the daycare, but Kathy wimped out and left before me so she wouldn't see Hayley too upset (she then cried all the way to work :-). I played with Hayley for a little bit and then managed to tear myself away. Apparently she only cried for a few minutes, and enjoyed most of the rest of the day. At one point she was sad, and one of the other kids came up and gave her a hug and told her that she had been sad on her first day too. When Kathy called to find out how she was doing, they told us that Hayley had said to them:

I don't know why my Mommy and Daddy left me here.
I don't know why I'm so sad.
She has seemed very happy each time we have picked her up, and seems to get along well with the other kids. Today when I came to pick her up, she was playing with dinosaurs; apparently, she had been waiting all day to play with them. I played with her for a few minutes, and then told her we would have to leave. She got very upset, and wanted to play more with the dinosaurs. One of the daycare people explained to me that she had been waiting all day, and had only had ten minutes to play with them. So I told Hayley she could play with them for a few more minutes. She played around for about a minute, and then said: "Beep, beep. It's time to go now.", got up and left.

On the way back from daycare, Hayley asked me:

H: Do people eat cars?
D: No.
H: Why?
D: Well, they are made of metal and plastic and that's too hard for us
   to eat; it would break our teeth and we wouldn't be able to chew.
H: [Thinks a bit] Do people eat yights [lights]?
D: Lights?  You mean lightbulbs?
H: yeah --- no, yights.
D: You mean lamps?
H: yeah.
D: No, people don't eat lamps either; they are usually made of wood or
   metal, and we can't eat wood or metal.
H: What big do people eat?  [What big things do people eat?]
D: Umm, well, people eat cows.
She thought about that for a bit and then went on to talk about something else. It is amazing how young denial sets in; most of the time she just refuses to talk about the relationship between animals and meat.

We went through a drive-through to get dinner, and I ordered a shake, asking what flavours they had. They said "vanilla, coffee, chocolate", at which point Hayley piped up:

H: I can't drink coffee!  I might get hypers!
D: It's ok, I'm not getting any coffee.

Hayley and I were drawing in the living room; she asked me to draw a car. I got her toy Mercedes to use as a model, and started to draw, a side view, so I drew two wheels.

H: Where de unner wheels?
D: Well, you can't see them.
H: Why?
D: Look at this car [holds up toy Mercedes].  How many wheels does it have?
H: [Pointing and counting correctly] One, two, three, four!
D: That's right, very good.  Now put the car on the table.  How many
   wheels can you see?
H: [surprised] Two!
D: That's right, that's why I only drew two --- when you see it from the
   side, you can only see two of the wheels.
H: [Thinks for a bit] Dat's torrectyee.  Dat's right. [That's correctly.  That's right.]
This was the first time I have seen her count correctly, pointing to each object in turn and counting one number per object. Perhaps she has seen other children count at her new daycare.

One of her stuffed animals, a little frog, has become her "baby". She explained to us that he doesn't talk yet, because he is too small. We have to hold him tightly against us, not dangling, and she doesn't like to leave him alone because "he will be sad".

Hayley has a curious habit of twiddling her fingers when she is thinking, as if drumming them on a table or typing on a keyboard. She uses gestures like a shrug with hands held open, facing up, to indicate "I don't know".

Hayley has learned to form past tenses by adding -ed.

October 96

29 October 1996

Hayley's story enactments are often more formal now; when Moi came over for dinner, he and I were playing with Hayley; she would point to Moi and say "you be Albret [Albert]", to me: "you be Albret's Mom, and I'll be Mrs Dee." These are characters from a book she recently got. She then explains the current situation: "Albret is sad because his Mommy went away," and then we ad lib. Periodically, when we aren't making the scene go as she wants, she re-organizes the cast to put herself in the role that needs fixing: pointing to Moi, "now you turned out to be Albret, and I'm Albret's Mom."

27 October 1996

We went with Hayley to a fancy-dress party at the zoo, for the birthday of Cameron, a friend of her's from daycare. The kids' costumes were really great; Hayley went as a dinosaur that looked more like a dragon to me (but heaven forbid I should say so :-) A birthday party at the zoo was a great idea; we'll have to remember that for future parties. It also meant that people could wander off and look at the zoo whenever they wanted to. For those of you in Rhode Island, Roger Williams park and zoo is really excellent for a city this size; the zoo is fairly small but very nice --- lots of open spaces for the animals, with small unobtrusive windy paths to walk along. They often have good exhibits there too; a few years ago they had some great robotic dinosaurs that they put in the woods by the side of the path; they would roar and move their heads and bodies. Hayley would go absolutely wild over that now.

25 October 1996

Vocabulary (these days I rarely catch words until long after she starts using them):
Halloween -- Halloween
sometimes -- sometimes
merry-go-round -- merry-go-round
Today I was in a store with Hayley. She found a stuffed dinosaur that she wanted, and I told her I didn't want to get it for her; I didn't think it was worth it. I suggested that we get one at a nature store or whatever. She told me that Kathy had told her she could have it (which turned out to be true, but I wasn't sure whether to believe it at the time). So I told her that the next time she came to this store with Kathy, she could get it. She was upset, but more sad than angry; she told me she was sad because she wasn't going to be with the dinosaur tonight. She then went over to the dinosaur and said:
H: [sad voice] I'm sorry I can't take you home today, but when I come
   back with Mommy I can det [get] you.
H: [as dinosaur] That's ok.  I want to stay here tonight.
H: [to me, more happily] De dinosaur said he wanted to stay here tonight!
D: Ah, maybe he has friends here he wants to be with.
H: Yeah.
[I finished getting what I needed and paid for it, then as we were leaving:]
H: Wait!  I got to tell [ask] de dinosaur [if] it's otay I don't get him
   today! 
D: No, hon, you can get him next time.  [heads for the door]
H: [wails] No, no.
D: [sigh] ok.  Go tell him then.
H: I need you to tell me which... which...
D: aisle?  Ok.  [we trog  back to the aisle with the dinosaurs]
H: Dinosaur, is it otay I don't get you today? 
H: [listens to dinosaur, then nods, satisfied] He says it's otay.

On the way back from daycare today, Hayley told me that Barney was her best friend. Her best "cwoff [cloth]" friend, that is. I asked her who her best friend at daycare was.

H: Gweer [Greer]...  and Jesse.
D: Jesse?  I don't think I know Jesse.
H: He's vewwy quiet.  You have to know him.
D: Ah, you have to get to know him to appreciate him?
H: Yeah.  To appwe...  appweciate him.

23 October 1996

Hayley is very much into reading stories to us or to her toys, now. I think this was partly triggered by some cassette-books we got her; she will sit for hours listening to the tape and following along in the book. She very quickly learns where the page turns are, and follows fine even on the side of the tape that doesn't have a chime to tell you when to turn the pages.

Here is her rendition of the first page of "The Three Little Pigs":

You're too big to yive here any more, so go and build your houses, she
said.  Go and build your houses, said de mother.  But make sure de woof
doesn't catch you!

It is interesting that she knows that "she said" and "said the mother" are interchangeable, and is some indication that she is remembering the meaning rather than the words. Another thing I noticed is that she sometimes changes things that are presumably meaningless to her into meaningful things; for example, "by the hair of my chinny chin chin" becomes "by my hairy chin"

After I had read her the three little pigs a few times, she looked at me:

H: What is our house made of?  [Oops --- we live in a wooden house :-)]
D: Umm, well, some of the house is made with bricks.
H: It's made of bwicks, right?
D: Umm, yes, yes.

15 October 96

Kathy and I went on a field trip with Hayley's school, to a farm for a hayride and pumpkin "picking". It was a lot of fun; the farmer was very tolerant of kids climbing all over piles of pumpkins and hay and stuff, and along the hay ride he stopped periodically to show us things. He showed us how green peppers turn red and then yellow, and why the more mature peppers are so much more expensive --- when they let them continue to grow, a large proportion are damaged by frost or birds. The only unfortunate thing was that it was really cold, and some of the children weren't dressed warmly enough. But we all huddled up and there was amazingly little whining and complaining --- less from fifteen 3-year-olds than we usually get from our one!

9 October 96

Hayley's manners still leave rather a lot to be desired; the other day Kathy was talking on the phone or something while Hayley was trying to watch a video. Hayley came out into the kitchen, fists on her hips, and declared: "Mom, you're being *awfuwwwy* yowd!" (loud).

When I picked Hayley up from daycare today they were watching the Lion King. Hayley came out of the area where she was, and brushing me aside with a firm "wait", explained to one of the teachers: "I'm afwaid I can't watch the end of the Yion King, cuz my father is here."

I committed a most grievous sin the other day --- I forgot Barney at daycare. When it was bedtime, we searched high and low, but couldn't find him. Hayley was devastated.

H: Barney will be all awone!
M&D: No, no, there are lots of other toys there.
H: But he won't have my bwankie!
M&D: Well, he can use the other blanket that you leave at daycare.
H: How will he know where to find it?
M&D: Oh, he'll find it easily.
This went on for some time, but eventually we persuaded her that it would be ok, and she went to sleep; the next day she got her Barney back again.

8 October 96

Here is a transcription of a conversation I had with Hayley a few days ago, not because it is particularly interesting, but just to get an idea of her language skills at this point.

We were looking for the crayons that can be used on a plastic drawing sheet.

D: Which crayons is it... These?
H: No.
D: So, where are these crayons?
D: Or we could just draw on paper if you like.
H: How do you draw on paper?
D: Paper...  Paper is what you normally draw on.
H: I want draw on dat [plastic sheet].
D: Sure, but we have to find the crayons that go with it.
H: Can you pwease?
D: Well, I don't even know what they look like, hon.
H: Dey're like, dey're like nitz. [shows me a pink crayon]
D: They're pink?
H: yeah.
[...]
H: Oh, so... look!  
H: Yet's yook at nitz. [not sure what she was looking at]
H: I'm helping you.
D: Yes, you are, very much.
H: Dad, where could dey be? [loses interest]
H: Dad, can I pway wid nitz thing for now? [Picks up the bumble ball]
D: Sure, but we may need to change the batteries.
H: Oh.  De batteries died.  Let's go down and change the batteries now.
D: That sounds like a good idea.

6 October 96

Today Hayley went to a birthday party for Margarete at an old merry-go-round in East Providence. The merry-go-round was built in the 1890s; it is the first one I have seen that has the rings to grab. I had read about this many times, but never seen one or a picture of one, and I had imagined it quite wrongly. For those of you as uncultured as me :-) the rings are about 3cm in diameter, with a thickness of maybe 4mm. They are dispensed by a machine that is continuously filled up by an attendant while the ride is going; a metal mouth like the ones that dispense tickets holds a ring partially extended, and you have to pinch your fingers at just the right moment to get it. If the ring is brass, you get a free ride; otherwise, you toss the ring into a clown's head a quarter turn on. As someone there pointed out, if the mechanism jams, it is quite easy to lose a finger, and in this age of litigation, it is surprising that the owners still risk it... The merry-go-round was very fast compared to the ones at Roger Williams Park and the mall; it was quite difficult to move Hayley from one mount to another in the middle (as we invariably end up having to do).

Hayley's best friend at the moment is a little girl called Greer; when they meet, they immediately start to tickle each other. Greer is, I think, about a year older than Hayley --- asking Hayley about ages is not at all productive :-).

vocabulary:

roof -- roof
drawer -- dwawer
door -- door
hairy -- hairy
fire -- fire
hammered -- hammered
chimney -- chimney
plop -- plop
happily -- happiyyi
ever -- ever
point out -- point out
think -- sink
boring -- boring
good heavens! -- good heavens!
chilly -- chilly
morning -- morning
gorgeous -- gorgeous
job -- job
good -- dood
festival -- festival
party -- party 
birthday -- birfday
lady -- yady
gentlemen -- gennelmen
toddler -- toddayer
soaked -- shoaked
white -- white
chair (2) -- chair
ripped -- ret
legs -- yegs
jacket -- jacka
festival - festival

September 96

25 September 96

Hayley came up with a great construction today. She was telling me she didn't like one of the little girls at daycare, Margarete.
D: Why don't you like her?
H: Because she meaned her eyes at me.

I later heard the other half of this story: Hayley had been barking at Margarete like a dog, which is why Margarete meaned her eyes at Hayley. I have seen Hayley do this to people, and it is really obnoxious. She gets on all fours, and barks at a person, refusing to speak (except sometimes to say in a falsetto: "I'm a dog!").

22 September 96

Yesterday we got Hayley a dinosaur collectible (velociraptor) with movable legs and arms. This morning she came running in, with the velociraptor in a stretched-out-position:
H: It yooks yike a gallimimus!
D: Hmm, is that right?  I remember the name but not the dinosaur.
   Do you have a book with a gallimimus in it?
H: [Thinks] I do not know.  I'll ask Mommy.  [Runs for the kitchen]
   I'll tell [ask] her which dinosaur [book] it is in!
   Mommy, do you know which dinosaur gallimimus is in?
M: No, I'm afraid I don't.
H: [Holding her hands out to the side, palms up] In fact, we don't have
   any books with gallimimus in it.

21 September 96

This evening Hayley asked for macaroni and cheese, and I cooked her a kind that she hadn't had before, with alfredo sauce. She took one look at it and exclaimed

H: It's DIRDY!"
D: Those are just spices, hon.
H: It will be too fffficy!
D: No, no, they aren't strong at all --- you won't even taste them.
H: No.  I don't want dat.
D: [sigh] Ok, what *do* you want?
H: [louder] I don't want dat!
D: [slightly irritated] I know, just tell me what you want, and I'll
   cook it for you.
H: [looking obstinate]  I don't want dat!
   [shoves plate at me and storms off into the living room]
I told her that when she calmed down and could tell me what she wanted, she should come back into the kitchen and we could talk. After a little while, she did, and we started to look for something she wanted. I refused to cook a second macaroni and cheese with a different sauce, and she started to get angry.
D: Hayley, look.  I'm happy to make you whatever you want, but you have
   to tell me what.
H: [on the verge of tears] But you yook yike [look like] you're mad at me!
D: [heart breaking] Oh hon, no, I'm not mad at you.  [goes over and hugs
    her]
H: But your eyes yooked yike you were mad at me.
D: I'm sorry if I looked mad.  I was just a little irritated because
   you didn't even try the pasta.    
After this she asked for a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, and everything was fine. The people at her daycare center said she was good at talking about her feelings; I don't know what to do to encourage this, but we seem to be doing roughly the right thing.

We went to get Hayley's picture taken today. The woman there posed Hayley with her hands crossed in her lap and her legs slightly crossed. This afternoon Hayley was playing with my (empty) camera, "taking pictures" of me. She knows how to press the shutter and wind the "film" on. Each time she carefully instructed me to assume the same pose she had in her picture :-)

This afternoon Hayley decided to replant some flowers she had given Kathy. There was half a planter free, so I let her dig some holes there to put the flowers in:

D: Be careful of the other plants' roots', Hayley.
H: I *am* be-carefulling!
Kirsten at her school mentioned that she had trouble with the faucets there, and I noticed that although she has little trouble with the bathroom sink faucets (a sort of metal arm that pivots), she can't deal with the bathtub faucets (circular) at all. It seems to be a combination of lack of strength and lack of knowledge of basic physics.

16 September 96

Hayley was sitting in the living room, having just watched one of the Land Before Time videos, in which "sharp teeth" are the carnivores. When I came in, she jumped up,
H: I want to see the sharp tooth pot!
D: [very confused] What pot?
H: No, no, you rewind to see parts of videos and movies
D: Oh, the sharp-tooth *part*

A common (grammatical and physical) mistake for her:

I just drawed on myself by a mistake.
Today in the living room she had been coloring and spread her crayons all around. Usually she just wanders off when something else catches her interest, but this time she picked up all her crayons, and then announced triumphantly to me,
Daddy, I picked up all my trayons by myself wivout aksing!
meaning without being asked, of course.

15 September 96

Her counting of objects is really close to correct now. One of her problems is a tendency to skip 5. She was looking at her new dinosaur book, at a section that had five or six dinosaurs on each 2-page spread. The most common mistake she made, it seemed to me, was a subconscious attempt to end up with the same number as last time.

There was an occasion today where, in a book she was reading, the previous page had five dinosaurs, and the current page only had four. She counted off the dinosaurs, "one,...two,...", then a rapid "fwee four", pointing to the third dinosaur, and "FIVE", pointing to the last. She has done this a number of times, so I can see the pattern fairly well.

Vocabulary. I am so behind on this...

coin -- toin
skate -- tsate
mattress -- mattwess
landing -- yanding
slip -- syip
sink -- sink
whip -- whip (the dinosaur whips its tail at the other dinosaur)
hide -- hide
closer -- cwoser
unpleasant -- unpweasant
nice -- nice

7 September 96

H: I'm dunna dwaw you a picture.
[she then started picking at a lump of blutack,
 used to hold up posters, not to draw with]
D: That's nice.  What are you going to draw it with?
H: A dinosaur.
D: No, not what of, but what with?
H: A trayon.
I think she had a firm expectation about what my next question was going to be; the only reason she was wrong was that I wondered what she was going to do with the blutack.

Hayley wanted to move one of her little chairs, a sort of upright beach-chair, to another room.

H: Yook, Daddy, I'm tswong enough to twawwy [carry] chairs...
[she catches sight of one of the big heavy kitchen chairs]
H: umm, yidda [little] chairs around.  I'm not big enough to
   twawwy big chairs around.
Later she was drawing on a piece of paper; I asked her what she was doing, and she proudly told me
I'm writing my yetters [letters] for tsool [school].

A few days ago she made up an insult: "whipper". When she is playing with her dinosaurs, she often makes the big nice herbivores clobber the nasty carnivores by "whipping" them with their tails, as in, whipping their tails around. Today she was angry at Kathy for some reason and she called her a "whipper".

She still doesn't seem to make much of a connection between the meat that she eats and the meat that animals eat. I guess it is so disguised a lot of the time that it is hard to tell.

3 September 96

jude was playing with Hayley this evening when Hayley bumped her head.
j: Do you want me to kiss it better?
H: I need a bandaid more dan a tiss.
apologize -- apowogize
bandaid -- bandaid

August 96

28 August 96

27 August 96

Yesterday Hayley had a fit in the drug store; we had stopped on the way home from her daycare to get drinks. She was annoyed because I wouldn't buy her a toy, and when I offered her a drink, she said, quite loudly:
H: I don't like these fuckin' drinks.
D: [stunned for a second] HAYLEY!  You don't use words like that in a store!
H: I don't fuckin' care.
D: All right, then, we're leaving. [scoops her up and heads out]
H: [crying all the way out] I'm thirsty!  I want a drink!

I have been having some interesting discussions with Hayley about eating meat. I am a recent convert to vegetarianism; Kathy and Hayley are omnivorous. Hayley and jude and I were playing with her dinosaurs. jude made one of the dinosaurs eat another, and Hayley said:

H: Don't eat dat dinosaur, dat isn't nice.
j: It's not nice to eat dinosaurs?
H: No.
j: Then what is he going to eat?
H: He can eat fish.
j: Why can't he eat dinosaurs?
H: Cos dey get up and walk.
j: So you don't eat animals that get up and walk?
H: No.
D: But cows get up and walk, and you eat cows.
H: [as if that were absurd] No we don't!
D: Sure you do.  Hamburgers are made from cows.
H: No!  Daddy, stop talking to me so much.

Another interesting discussion concerned whether people were animals. I asked her in the car on the way home one day whether cats were animals:

D: Are cats animals?
H: Yes.
D: Dogs?
H: Yes.
D: People?
H: No! [of course not]
D: Yes they are.
H: [vehemently] No!  People aren't animals!
D: Whatever.
Later that evening jude asked her whether people were animals, and she replied:
Ummm, dey are sort of like animals.
I found it interesting how a single data point could change her opinion so much.

Hayley started her new daycare on Monday, at the child care center on the Butler grounds. Before going Kathy had explained to her that she might be sad, and maybe even cry a bit on the first day. Hayley told us later that she might cry "a yidda bit". Kathy and I both took her to the daycare, but Kathy wimped out and left before me so she wouldn't see Hayley too upset (she then cried all the way to work :-). I played with Hayley for a little bit and then managed to tear myself away. Apparently she only cried for a few minutes, and enjoyed most of the rest of the day. At one point she was sad, and one of the other kids came up and gave her a hug and told her that she had been sad on her first day too. When Kathy called to find out how she was doing, they told us that Hayley had said to them:

I don't know why my Mommy and Daddy left me here.
I don't know why I'm so sad.
She has seemed very happy each time we have picked her up, and seems to get along well with the other kids. Today when I came to pick her up, she was playing with dinosaurs; apparently, she had been waiting all day to play with them. I played with her for a few minutes, and then told her we would have to leave. She got very upset, and wanted to play more with the dinosaurs. One of the daycare people explained to me that she had been waiting all day, and had only had ten minutes to play with them. So I told Hayley she could play with them for a few more minutes. She played around for about a minute, and then said: "Beep, beep. It's time to go now.", got up and left.

On the way back from daycare, Hayley asked me:

H: Do people eat cars?
D: No.
H: Why?
D: Well, they are made of metal and plastic and that's too hard for us
   to eat; it would break our teeth and we wouldn't be able to chew.
H: [Thinks a bit] Do people eat yights [lights]?
D: Lights?  You mean lightbulbs?
H: yeah --- no, yights.
D: You mean lamps?
H: yeah.
D: No, people don't eat lamps either; they are usually made of wood or
   metal, and we can't eat wood or metal.
H: What big do people eat?  [What big things do people eat?]
D: Umm, well, people eat cows.
She thought about that for a bit and then went on to talk about something else. It is amazing how young denial sets in; most of the time she just refuses to talk about the relationship between animals and meat.

We went through a drive-through to get dinner, and I ordered a shake, asking what flavours they had. They said "vanilla, coffee, chocolate", at which point Hayley piped up:

H: I can't drink coffee!  I might get hypers!
D: It's ok, I'm not getting any coffee.

Hayley and I were drawing in the living room; she asked me to draw a car. I got her toy Mercedes to use as a model, and started to draw, a side view, so I drew two wheels.

H: Where de unner wheels?
D: Well, you can't see them.
H: Why?
D: Look at this car [holds up toy Mercedes].  How many wheels does it have?
H: [Pointing and counting correctly] One, two, three, four!
D: That's right, very good.  Now put the car on the table.  How many
   wheels can you see?
H: [surprised] Two!
D: That's right, that's why I only drew two --- when you see it from the
   side, you can only see two of the wheels.
H: [Thinks for a bit] Dat's torrectyee.  Dat's right. [That's correctly.  That's right.]
This was the first time I have seen her count correctly, pointing to each object in turn and counting one number per object. Perhaps she has seen other children count at her new daycare.

One of her stuffed animals, a little frog, has become her "baby". She explained to us that he doesn't talk yet, because he is too small. We have to hold him tightly against us, not dangling, and she doesn't like to leave him alone because "he will be sad".

Hayley has a curious habit of twiddling her fingers when she is thinking, as if drumming them on a table or typing on a keyboard. She uses gestures like a shrug with hands held open, facing up, to indicate "I don't know".

Hayley has learned to form past tenses by adding -ed.